| I swear the "Tornado to Mess Up My Life" has just passed. About a month ago, Duane and I got into a big fight and he ended up leaving me. We went our seperate ways for a couple weeks, but one night, about 4 in the morning, he called and wanted to come back, so I drove from Sioux Falls to Hawarden and back just so we could be back together again. The next day, I called the guy i had been sorta seeing and told him straight out that I was going to stay with Duane. Duane called the girl he was seeing, but than it just got all screwed up. He got all confused and wanted to go back, but stay at the same time. He didnt know what he wanted. He ended up staying and we got better, sorta. That monday, I had a doctor's appointment, because I thought I had a cyst or something. Come to find out, I'm pregnant. She scheduled an ultrasound right away, so I went and picked up Duane and we went to the hospital and did that. That night, he called that chick again and told her I was pregnant and of course she got upset. Duane was trying to be nice and still wanted to be her friend, so they talked and I even talked to her. I didn't like them talking for so long, but there wasn't much I could do about it at the time. A couple days later, she called and said she thought SHE was pregnant. I told her that I would buy her a pregnancy test and she said no cuz she "wasnt worried about it". Obviously a lie just to see if that would get Duane back. Well, me and Duane were looking for a new place to live, because the first time we split up, we signed a 30-day notice to leave our apartment. We ended up finding a place, and just had to meet with the guy and talk terms and junk with him. We went down to Hawarden on a Friday. On Saturday, that chick called duane for no reason just to talk. Duane had heard from one of his friends that she had a miscarriage. She didn't say anything about it, so Duane asked her if she thought she was still pregnant. At first she was like "yeah, i think i still am" and than duane told her about the rumor he had heard and she was like "no im pregnant--just kidding, I had a miscarriage." YEAH RIGHT what a freaking lier! who would DO that?? Joke about a freaking miscarriage?!?!? Anyways, we stayed down there till Monday, so we could apply for jobs. Well, monday afternoon, we got into another fight and he went to play baseball with his friends. That girl was there, so when I tried talking to him, he had to be an asshole and it just wasnt a good thing. He ended up driving around with that Bitch all night long while I tried to pull them over, because my daughter was low on diapers and formula, and I didnt have gas to get home or money to buy any. Of course I got ignored. I ended up staying at Duane's parents' house by myself that night. The next day, i kept trying to get ahold of him for money for diapers and formula or gas to get home. I ended up having to call his uncle to borrow some of his grandkid's diapers! How pathetic of duane, huh? Around 2:15, Duane finally showed up, yelling at me to get out of the house, and i said no, because his mom said i could stay there as long as i needed to. We kept on fighting and his mom came home from work and yelled at duane for not taking care of his daughter. Duane kept fighting with me than asked if i wanted to get punched so i told him to do it. he said to go outside, so i put Varia in a stroller and went outside. He got in the car, and i asked him if he was gonna punch me. He asked if i wanted him to find someone to do it, and i said bring it on, she's to scared to do it anyways. He said if I got off his mom's property, that she would, but who would've watched Varia? Yeah--That stupid-idiotic-lying-17 year old bitch was gonna punch a 19 year old pregnant girl??? HOW SMART!!! I had to go ask my mom for money to get home! So, now i live with my parents with Varia, and duane lives with his parents. He's still seeing that cunt, i think, unless they're just friends, i have no idea, but i dont like her. Duane's stupid and needs to grow up. He's even lost a good friend for how stupid he's being! That friend is on my side, which pissed duane off, but who cares! He told me that I need to grow up. Yeah, he's with a girl who lied about being pregnant, joked about having a miscarriage, who's not even out of high school yet, who didn't tell her parents about him right away, and who told her brother's that he's 19 when hes really 21! Duane's sister doesnt like her either! I'm going in tomorrow to sign up for child support, because Duane is so bad with his money, and wont be responsible enough just to give me money each month. Even IF we ever did get back together, the money would just be coming right back to us, so that's no big deal. I don't care. I shouldn't have to pay for everything myself. His mom is pissed that I'm doing it, but she doesnt get it. She doesn't know the whole story. So here I am. 18 weeks pregnant. Already a single mother. Living with my parents. No job yet. Not in college. Depressed. Stressed to the max. I don't know what to do next... |
U! I'LL MISS YOU!
I'll come back to visit alot too...i promise!!!
